18th Note

[thewildone]

[Accidental audio]

--No, I don't want to try it again, what I want is a fucking cigarette. 

[The sound of several voices arguing, a lot of Curt swearing including a phrase that may or may not be "pig-fucking sons-of-bitches,"  and something crashing to the ground.]

Fuck.

Comments

[chosered.livejournal.com]

Can't you get one?

[thewildone]

Not a single one. All mine when missing and any time someone tries to give me one some kind of ridiculous shit happens like it gets dropped into a puddle or stolen by a pigeon or something.

[chosered.livejournal.com]

Chewing tobacco?

[thewildone]

Ugh. Not the same, but that might work. Fucking curse seems to be affecting anything smokeable, not just tobacco, so maybe it doesn't apply to chewing.

[chosered.livejournal.com]

It might save whoever you're yelling at, Curt.

[thewildone]

I can yell at whoever the hell I want to yell at.

[chosered.livejournal.com]

Logically, yes, you can.

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[thewildone]

[sigh]

Whatever. I don't want to work with anyone that can't deal with me yelling at them anyway.

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

You too?

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[thewildone]

Yeah, me too. Sucks, don't it?

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

It's wretched, is what it is--this really couldn't have happened at a worse time. Have you had any luck with alternatives?

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[thewildone]

Not with anything that can be smoked. Somebody suggested chewing tobacco but I can't find any...

So, yeah, not so much. Think maybe I'll end up taking something to calm down.

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

I--almost never drink, you know, but I think I have to turn to it now.

Do you agree with me that this is an--awful way to try to get a person to quit smoking?

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[thewildone]

And not very fuckin' likely to work.

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

Not in the slightest.

I--my name is Charlotte, it's good to meet you, even under these circumstances.

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[thewildone]

I'm Curt. Are you new around here?

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

This is my third day here, so yes--and my first curse, at least from a city.

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[thewildone]

This isn't actually the worst one you could start out with, but at the moment kinda seems like that to me.

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

It really, really does. I keep trying to tell myself at least I have all my fingers, but--honestly I think I'd trade five of them for a cigarette. Do you think it's comforting we're not suffering alone?

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[thewildone]

I dunno. Kind of makes it worse that so many people are cranky but at least I know I'm not the only addict around here.

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[quiesquietis.livejournal.com]

It does feel a little lonely, particularly when you keep getting the same advice from well-meaning people. And we're not cranky, the two of us, we're just--fried. So there's that.

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

Calm down, okay? Just give it until midnight.

[thewildone]

Not okay! I can't work like this.

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

It's only a day, Curt. You can get through it.

[thewildone]

[growling noises]

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

...That's a no, isn't it.

[thewildone]

I just neeeeeeed a cigarette. One. And I will be fine.

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

If it's a curse, you'll have to wait. I'm sorry.

Think of it as an opportunity to quit smoking?

[thewildone]

No.

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

Okay, that works too...

[thewildone]

The worst part is it makes me crave everything.

[horrible-penny.livejournal.com]

Does it help take the edge off of things if you give in to those cravings?

[thewildone]

Some I just can't that's what cigarettes are for.

[citadelspirit.livejournal.com]

Eager to give yourself cancer, eh? But you've already sold your mind to it.

[thewildone]

Not interested in a fucking lecture about what I should be doing in a place where I probably couldn't die if I wanted to.

[citadelspirit.livejournal.com]

Oh, you can die here. If the overlords of this place want to kill you, they can, no matter who or what you are.

Why are you so convinced that you can't die?

[thewildone]

'Cause I assume we're all here for the deities' amusement and the one thing I'm good at is being entertaining. Dunno why they'd want to kill me but that's not something I can do anything about, so why worry?

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[hidesinrestroom.livejournal.com]

Hn. What if I held the cigarette for you? This way you can't drop it.

[thewildone]

Still won't work. I mean, you're welcome to go ahead and try but nothing looks promising.

[hidesinrestroom.livejournal.com]

I could always blow the smoke in your face.

[thewildone]

Wind. Strange sudden winds.

Look, I appreciate the fact that you're trying to help but there's no point.

[hidesinrestroom.livejournal.com]

This curse sucks.

[thewildone]

Yeah. Is it doing anything to you?

[hidesinrestroom.livejournal.com]

All my food is gone.